Resilience has been a rejuvenating concept for me in recent months. When I think of resilience I think of flexibility. Life with MS has thrown many unexpected situations into my world. Resilience is that solid framework I build coping mechanisms upon. Being resilient allows rom for the flexibility to modulate response. Resilience means seeing a […]
It might be determined by a casual observer, that I live in odd distance from where it would be expected to find me. It is by choice but not by plan. And unlike the city girl of my growing up days I no longer like congested, densely populated areas as a permanent living situation. Give […]
My son came home a year ago last July. He had gone missing, and every phone call from an unknown number, every news story about an unidentified body that had been found and every account of someone killed in a police confrontation made my heart race. In the months and weeks before we parted ways, my […]
Of every other day of the week, Sunday should really smell like bacon and coffee. Really. About a year ago, I let go of my frantic grasping of vegetarian eating with the startling realization that even adherence to that noble gastric discipline takes lives. This morning I stand quietly in my kitchen peeling the wrapping […]
How to finish the book. It seems close to being done sometimes. My fatigue in the evening drains me of incentive. Weekends are my only respite since I have a day job to sustain throughout the week. I must keep trying. Annie Dillard claims a book often takes years to complete. I know there are […]
Happy New Year! I’ve been writing a book. A memoir, if you’re asking me what sort of book it is. Someone once told me that everyone has at least one story to tell but I believe that within the one story there are hundreds or maybe thousands of stories. That is encouraging to me. There […]
Accepting things as they are is not as easy as it might seem. When friends or family do not behave as we desire them to, the reaction felt in response is generally unpleasant. Frustration and anger coupled with disappointment flavor the minutes, hours, and perhaps even years. Learning to accept adversity is not the same […]
Hokusai says look carefully. He says pay attention, notice. He says keep looking, stay curious. Hokusai says says there is no end to seeing He says look forward to getting old. He says keep changing, you just get more who you really are. He says get stuck, accept it, repeat yourself as long as it […]
Living like a shadow shifting, eyes closed in the passing of another’s light. Pushing off the notion before it breathes, that what you are is excellent. Caving to a swagger you think is better. Heading towards the exit before the show begins is somehow better than an aisle seat. Convincing to the world underneath. When […]
Waiting for something real, better, more fulfilling or true can occupy a lot of emotional real estate. Looking forward to the future is fine if the looking does not evolve into living for the future or in the past. Neither exists really, so where does that leave you? While you wait for, oh, the sun […]
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