It might be determined by a casual observer, that I live in odd distance from where it would be expected to find me. It is by choice but not by plan. And unlike the city girl of my growing up days I no longer like congested, densely populated areas as a permanent living situation. Give […]
My son came home a year ago last July. He had gone missing, and every phone call from an unknown number, every news story about an unidentified body that had been found and every account of someone killed in a police confrontation made my heart race. In the months and weeks before we parted ways, my […]
Of every other day of the week, Sunday should really smell like bacon and coffee. Really. About a year ago, I let go of my frantic grasping of vegetarian eating with the startling realization that even adherence to that noble gastric discipline takes lives. This morning I stand quietly in my kitchen peeling the wrapping […]
Drug induced sleep means I wake up in 5 hours. I need to ask my doctor what I am supposed to be getting out of taking a muscle relaxer for spasticity. I don’t know which is worse, being unable to fall asleep because of spasticity or taking the medication, not sleeping soundly and waking up […]
Another experience of separation came to teach me this week disguised in the sudden death of a beloved pet. What I took for granted, expected to exist and cared for every day, was gone in a matter of seconds. How do we, how do I bring the truth of life’s frailty into a shared space […]
Waiting for something real, better, more fulfilling or true can occupy a lot of emotional real estate. Looking forward to the future is fine if the looking does not evolve into living for the future or in the past. Neither exists really, so where does that leave you? While you wait for, oh, the sun […]
What is loss really about? Is it the experience of being deprived of any number of possessions or personal relationships? Does loss spur the beast of addiction to run full speed towards destruction? Exhaustive effort can be spent clinging to places and people, afraid of losing that semblance of security even when the reality is […]
Where do I go to hide from MS? Is there a place I can just hang out for a day or two and not be reminded that I have this spectre of physical impairment following me around? Lately I feel drained and really tired towards the end of a day. In the morning I have […]
hope is a whisper in the darkness of disaster brilliant in unimaginable ways persistent and undaunted when humanity is tossed within the morass that evil fosters hope seems always to reappear stronger, bolder outcome notwithstanding what must be two sides to a coin balanced on a minted edge like a thousand others hope is a […]
“In the book of life, the answers aren’t in the back.” — Charles M. Schultz
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