The little girl never knew how small and vulnerable she was. She lived in a world that seemed to her both vast and uncomplicated, immense in scale and minute in detail. And all this within herself, coexisting in perfect balance. For a long time she never saw a problem with this arrangement. The boldness of […]
Another experience of separation came to teach me this week disguised in the sudden death of a beloved pet. What I took for granted, expected to exist and cared for every day, was gone in a matter of seconds. How do we, how do I bring the truth of life’s frailty into a shared space […]
Where did yesterday go, with its complexity and concern for tomorrow? I am here now with yesterday’s tomorrow and everything seems quite normal. Arms and legs are still intact. Stubborn maladies are hanging on but not for long. But yesterday there seemed to be this burden pressing against my lungs and the air around me […]
Worse case scenarios rarely come to be. Fantasies are virile and self perpetuating and sometimes myth is more engaging than reality. Mirage more compelling than the press of real flesh. Thinking of her more pleasant, daydreaming of him, a happier experience than being with either. What would you choose if disaster struck? A great tsunami […]
Waiting for something real, better, more fulfilling or true can occupy a lot of emotional real estate. Looking forward to the future is fine if the looking does not evolve into living for the future or in the past. Neither exists really, so where does that leave you? While you wait for, oh, the sun […]
What is loss really about? Is it the experience of being deprived of any number of possessions or personal relationships? Does loss spur the beast of addiction to run full speed towards destruction? Exhaustive effort can be spent clinging to places and people, afraid of losing that semblance of security even when the reality is […]
If I possessed the world I’d give you a wide desert A fast car An undersea palace And a mountain all your own If I commanded the heavens I’d give you the sun A golden chariot The three brightest stars And a silver comet If I controlled the universe I’d give you hope, Faith, serenity, […]
from a time past
to a moment
Child eyes eager filled with all things now Never look the other way What happens becomes eternal Questions asking why asking when asking how Years adjust the query As the seeker’s eyes grow weaker Child eyes eager Taking captive what is here Tendrils hope the hold is worthy Breaking free of what seems The only […]
I am at work sitting at my desk, in a moderate amount of pain on a recent morning. The week had been characterized by a daily battle with fatigue which dogged me even after a full 8 hours of sleep. As long as I did not lie down as I got ready to leave the […]